Have you ever noticed how quickly self-doubt can sneak up on you? One day you are giddy with excitement because your future is laying in front of you waiting for you to grab it. The next day you are riddled with fear about your abilities.
This is a big week for me. I defend my PhD dissertation on Thursday afternoon. One of my professors told me it was really just a formality, but that stupid little voice in my head has decided that's not the case. Now I'm worried about the defense, I still don't have a job, and I am starting to question whether or not I've done the right thing.
I know that this whole thing is probably silly, but it's really weighing on me. Bob really wants to head off to seminary to be a minister, but is waiting until we know where I will be working. Our dryer died last week, but we don't want to buy a new one until we know I have a job. I feel like our lives are in limbo, and it's all my fault. I don't know what to do about it though.
I've had a few nibbles from companies, but nothing firm. I am waiting to hear about one specific job, but nothing yet. I'm sure that the waiting is probably a huge part of my stress, but I hate feeling like this!!!!
Please just pray for me. I know that God has a plan for Bob and me, I just don't know what that plan is at this moment. I am trying hard to have faith and be trusting, but it isn't easy.
"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." ~I Thessalonians 5:19
2 comments:
To quote Tom Petty, "The waiting is the hardest part." You will make it.
Your the smartest science geek I know!! Waiting is always hard.. but you'll be fine!
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